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.....A Summer Without Rain.......

....A Brighter Day.....

He stared out at what the day showed him , leaning against the box of the truck looking at what was left after the longest winter that he could remember .The seasons seemed to pass slower and as he looked his mind wandered .The sun which he had missed bore down on his back as a reminder  of last summer .It had been so warm and he had turned from a light color to a  golden bronze in it's abundance .But he hardly noticed it now except for it's warmth .There was a silence that he felt , deep within and he knew why , but as the seasons pass he knew it was as it was.The storms that had come into his life had brought many reflections for him to ponder .He hoped for a better year , one where the days would be filled with memories that would bring a new beginning

Grabbing his drink off of the railing he walked along the path leading through the woods, this was his place of solitude when he needed to clear his mind or at best put it to rest .His feet fell softly , not wanting to disturb anything but rather to hear and see everything , a beautiful distraction .Taking small sips he walked where his feet had fallen many times , a path he had made just for these days , Once more searching for words and a way to put his heart to rest there he allowed himself to wander to a place he shared with no one , there he was who he knew himself best  , always searching for meaning and hoping for a brighter day

© RavenHeart /4/13/2019

......Silent Solitude....

The warmth he had felt earlier was slowly slipping away as the evening crept among the trees.The shadows would soon be appearing and he stopped and leaned against the old Oak tree .He could hear a rustling among the falls leaves which littered the ground .Staring down till he saw movement he caught a glimpse of a small mouse .It was busy with it's own life , and after a few moments it disappeared to where he didn't know. Taking his last sip he turned and slowly started back , he had wandered a ways and by the time he reached the beginning of the trail the evening was setting in .He felt a chill as the cool breeze surrounded him , Should have grabbed my jacket me whispered  , There stopping for a moment he looked back , but it was all just a black landscape now except for the sky which was now showing the heavens again ,The stars , the ones he had so many times gazed at while sitting by a fire at night . The same ones who kept him company into many late nights shone as old friends

After a small meal he made himself another drink and settled into the old arm chair .The hours passed as he listened to music , each song held something as each brought a memory .Most came quickly and faded back to where they would remain till once again called on , some were a constant .Those he held closer as each had been a part that he hadn't understood or was still looking for a deeper meaning .And as the hours passed he faded away , carried by dreams so real they had at times woken him .Those had been the sleepless nights that he had kept him awake , the ones which left him in silent solitude

© RavenHeart /4/13/2019

.......Broken ........

He stirred and slowly he opened his eyes  , looking at the clock on the wall it was as always , 5 am .He had pondered on why it was always that time ? Some nights he had been able to sleep later but those were few and far in between .But he got up and made his morning coffee , the day had started again and he needed get going .Most days he just pushed himself to go , on some though he would rather just stay inside , there it was safe and without any contact with the outside world .But there was work to do and as he filled his coffee mug he stared out at the waking world .The night had been cold and the morning air caught him by surprise but the truck needed to run for a few moments before he headed out . The path he took was always the same , a slow ride to enjoy the sun as it appeared in the east .Some times he would pull to a stop and just watch it as it appeared , sipping his coffee .But his mind wandered and he was there again and he felt the silence again

He pushed himself to get the work done , the days seemed to long and as he got to where he needed to be he felt a relief. Quickly gathering himself and what he needed to take with him he left . The rush to get out of the city was always almost to the point that his anxiety took control .But once he was back on the familiar road he slowed down , what was behind him just got further as each mile faded away behind him .His mind had been occupied by the thought that he woke up with and even the music hadn't taken it away .Each song had taken on a new meaning it seemed and inside he had felt each word sung . His heart swelled and as tears again came he felt the pain and again he was broken

© RavenHeart /4/13/2019

.....Without Rain.......

As many times before the evening had become to long as he tried to preoccupy himself with a few projects .But the mind wouldn't let go and he fell deeper into what it was saying . Maybe i need to try something new , find a happier place ? a new distraction that might dampen these thoughts and give me some peace ?. But where ? There was more that he needed to understand and he knew it but he had grown tired and allowed the mind to win .Wine might put him to sleep he thought , always knocked me out and then the dreams didn't come to haunt me .And into the evening he sipped from the glass , a movie was there for the noise and maybe a distraction to open a new door in his mind .Strange how something that came into the world could just as simply disappear he thought .Almost as if with out an audience , but as we come into this world we do so at our time and thus maybe we must do so when we leave ?. And as his eyes started to shut he remembered , seemed a long time ago but it felt like yesterday and as he fell asleep to the hum of the television into another world again he wandered

He awoke and as always he looked ......5 am ! and again he pondered if there was a meaning behind that ? He lay there in silence listening to the television that had been on all night  .But his sleep had been a maze of dreams and memories , the wine hadn't helped ! As he walked to the counter to make his coffee and start another day he stared outside .Looking beyond the trees he remembered and again his heart swelled and the tears fell like rain ......and softly uttered the words came out ....Please let me have a summer without rain  

© RavenHeart /4/13/2019